7:29 p.m. - 2004-09-27
Break It Up
Fragging Primus!
it was just a break-up. a break-up with details i would rather not discuss, because i feel its something that need not be aired to the public, because quite frankly its between the two of us. there's nothing drastic, nothing happened, no one cheated, no one did anything. things were not working out, so we mutually split and decided to remain just friends. CAN WE JUST LEAVE IT AT THAT?!
i mean honestly... do you really think i want to go through the details over and over again with each of you? and believe me, there's alot of you. there is such a thing called privacy.. personal privacy. if i say i dont want to talk about it, then, I. DONT. WANT. TO. TALK. ABOUT. IT. is it really that hard for you to accept? i mean all of you!
you. my friends. i love you all dearly, but please give a girl her space will ya?
i know i listen very open-mindedly to you when you have problems you want to share, but if you say you dont want to talk about it, have i ever pushed you day after day to talk about it? or made you feel guilty for not sharing it with me? NO! i let you deal with it on your own. is it so hard to do the same for me?! believe me, if it was something that could be shared, you would already know. you wouldnt have had to ask, because if i truly needed help in getting over it, i would have come to you by now. but there is nothing to get over for crying out loud!
Sid is the only one who knows all the details. why? because she is my best friend. has been for over 4 years. and its not just the fact that she's my best friend. i've said all along that the two of us have a connection that i cant describe, which just makes it easy for us to tell each other anything. that doesnt mean i love the rest of you any less. Sid just happens to be like an extension of myself. understand that.
i know you all want to help, but i dont need help. i'm not in denial either. just accept the fact that i'm ok, instead of making things harder for me. just because i'm not telling you details doesnt mean you're not a good listener, doesnt mean i think of you as less a friend, doesnt mean that you're a person that no one can come to. i mean honestly, is that what you all judge my friendship by? you think you need to have all those requirements to be my friend? what have you been drinking?! Primus!
Just.. let it go alright? this is just blowing up into a more big a deal than it should be. like i said, this was a mutual break up with no hard feelings, so can we all just move on!
